Pale Blue
By Mark Mordue
Published 30 August 2023
I’m in a pale blue mood
in Leichhardt, in Summer Hills,
a storybook explorer
afternoon sun in my face
the ghosts of my children’s years
holding hands on busy corners,
lemon bricks
of the houses on the streets,
trees, and later, their screaming birds.
I get nervous about not being here,
about no heroic place to forever exist.
All my words, my poems,
a lattice of shadows and leaves
on these concrete pavements,
love-letters across time
to grown-up souls,
blowing away like music
scratching across stone.
Blood hearts, remember
the conversations we had
about God
and wind in the trees
the way books help you
Bob Dylan, Lorca,
Catcher in the Rye.
Me outside a home
I did not own,
waiting for you
because I could not wait.
The haikus and lyrics
in pencil on kitchen wall,
those lines about a red boat of clay,
a man like a cross of himself
and a fox.
All these wounds we had.
Love’s cutting truth
in Christmas fairy lights
slung from a neighbour’s branches,
me holding your ankles
searching for the wings at your heels.
I gotta go into the sky eventually.
Nothing to fret over.
We were true in love
conquering the complicated gasps
of our feelings and sitting together
now and again in a unity.