The Hon. Crazie Ship
By Heidi Everett
May I have your attention please.
Doors will be shut in ten seconds.
Stand clear.
Schizophrenia.
Throw all the letters in the air of Schizophrenia and it comes back down as Hon. Crazie Ship.
It’s a ship that’s both honourable and crazy.
It sank in flying colours.
· HON ‘An honorific is a title that conveys esteem, courtesy, or respect for position or rank when used in addressing or referring to a person’ www.en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Honorific
· CRAZY ‘Someone who is wild and fun. Someone who will go against the rules. Someone who does what they want no matter the consequences. Someone who will do anything especially for love’. www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=Crazy
Someone who spells it crazie.
My injured brain is high latency - you speak to me in 5G and I’m buffering Morse. Yet my thoughts are up there with Musk.
Except; the meds.
The meds put a full. stop. On. My. Thoughts. And. You. Oh. Look. A. Dog.
A Tesla with Seroquel additive.
It’d be great if we all learnt Auslan and moved tangibly through our shared minds rather than stood like pillars with invisible sparks coming off the top expecting everyone to catch fire.
Schizoaffective.
It’s not a tad of schizophrenia that affects me as a GP once described to my body trying to engineer listening.
· AFFECTIVE DISORDER ‘characterised by dramatic changes or extremes of mood, including elevated, expansive, or irritable mood with hyperactivity, pressured speech, and inflated self-esteem, or dejected mood with disinterest in life, sleep disturbance, agitation, and feelings of worthlessness or guilt episodes, and often combinations. www.britannica.com/science/affective-disorder
Amazing!
Exquisitely spectacular phantasm of hypersensitive audiation.
What did you say?!
OMG a Dog!
…thing with end up front eyes?
Creative genius I
But I suck
the world sucks
This 3AM revelation
Enrages the crap outta me
a useless, discarded lump
fault.
All aboard.
Note: This poem was first published in Admissions: Voices within Mental Health (Upswell Publishing, 2022)
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