I live in a rectangle and it is the purity of the world in which I live. The
sea surrounds the sun-silver walls which slithers radioactive junkie
degenerates. Sklaaaaaatch, skraaaaaaaawww, shhhhhhhhhhlaaap of
the tearing and pouring of blood, flesh and lime cascading from
The sun-silver walls SHOOT five metres to the sun of the kingdom.
Government instruments penetrate with see-rays and battle with blood
cameras that spray psychoactive substances to diffuse and disorient
“Tut-tut” I mutter. “A warthog-in-mud tactic”.
Someone shouts from criss-cross metallic megaphones.
Government vehicles stride the sky with beeps, blips and clicks
permeating from slits in the high-beam lights. The council cleaners
strip the Government Manufactured & Crafted 1905-vintage wallpaper
that is pasted onto the firmament. Waste is compressed into structure-
cubes cut in 2cm intervals.
The dettol lake sucks up the dirt-germs sourced from a constellation
of abscesses held in various city hospitals. The three-amigo
checkpoints filter the scum-particles held in the backseat of a vomit-
car dropped into the dettol lake.
Behind, moving electric benches support statues which secrete white
blood cells magnified-physical 2000 times. Autoclaves line the edges
of the horizon. Steam puff furtive.
“Steam the air and strip it bare, boys.”
All drugs anti-cover the 5-metre perimeter of my bedroom. All anti-this
and anti-that. Anti-histamines, anti-biotics, anti-septics and anti-
psychotics. But I have no need for any of these, rolling as my brain
does, no contaminants required nor sprayed mind/fur-altering
microbes. (they fill the shelves). It’s all anti-life. But purity and sterility
wash the hands that forsake the filth. Eyes in an evil (they pierce the
mirror) to which I stare in Kafka horror. My body is completely encased.
I am becoming a germ.
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