stream of tears

i am so lively in front of people
the biggest smile with the brighest eyes

but as soon as the water runs
my tears flow as a never-ending stream

i am left with nothing but a gaping hole in my heart 
because i'll never have the kind of love
no one will ever
ever
love me in that way
where they are utterly consumed
and hopelessly falling in love with another

and as soon as the water runs
my tears become one with the stream

i can feel the emptiness
the loneliness
it takes over my body
my brain
my everything

it's when the water runs
my tears are what seem like a never-ending stream